Monday, August 31, 2009


i have no desire for any sort of romance. i think that is marvelous.

Sunday, August 30, 2009


i sense a new savannah coming on. this is going to be a test. and i've never been more excited.
"thems fighting words" comes to mind.


Saturday, August 29, 2009


i have mixed feelings. they'd probably go well with mixed drinks. i'll eat some wheaties instead.

Friday, August 28, 2009


no expectations only means that everyday is a good day.

Thursday, August 27, 2009


oooh madison. this is the year you and i fall in love.


i now have a tree on my arm, and am making myself at home in my new dwelling.

Tuesday, August 25, 2009


sanav v 2.0 ain't scared of shit.

Monday, August 24, 2009


only allow yourself a few minutes of despair, then remember that you have not a thing to be despaired about.

its just that i didn't always have this, and i suppose it's called growing up, which is something i never really wanted to do in the first place.

Sunday, August 23, 2009


i am a hopeless romantic. emphasis on the hopeless.

Saturday, August 22, 2009


if i walked forever, would i get anywhere?

Friday, August 21, 2009


all i want in life is yak butter.
bros k.

Thursday, August 20, 2009


it's nearly madison time.

Wednesday, August 19, 2009


i am taking up running. and by running i mean, traveling by foot to quiet places to read books, and occasionally en route to said places, running for a few blocks.

but it's a start.

Tuesday, August 18, 2009


waffles are going to be a food i associate with college. forever.

Monday, August 17, 2009


i am one of the only people i know that likes hospitals.

Sunday, August 16, 2009


future homes and weeping willows.


perfect, peaceful, and my only secret. it's not a secret in the fact that people don't know about it, but it is the only place where i think about things inwardly and don't share them. and because of that, i am not doing a sentence a day for the days i was there.

Tuesday, August 11, 2009

very incomplete, but i am excited none the less, tell me what you think.
time to go meteor hunting.

Monday, August 10, 2009


today, i missed little jebby a lot. something about today kept making me think i'd see him sleeping in the sun or chasing his ball around. but it wasn't really sad, it was just a little confusing.

Sunday, August 9, 2009


i am now in love with meryl streep as julia child and have just met one of the most interesting, cool families ever.

Saturday, August 8, 2009


i have watched lost and ate hashbrowns all day.
welch withdrawal is da worst.

Friday, August 7, 2009


"remember to remember me
standing still, in your past
floating fast like a humming bird"

strange dreamz. they still drown me, but it doesn't scare me like it used to.

i have changed. i can feel it. normally, i would be nostalgic for whatever bits of me lost during transformation. but i suppose that was just proof that i have never really changed before.

Thursday, August 6, 2009


things don't make me as sad as they used to.
perhaps i am becoming more like the ocean.

Wednesday, August 5, 2009


it could be worse, you could be dead.
after the dust settled, i see you found your heart, and that makes me happy. i think i found mine too.

Tuesday, August 4, 2009


everyone has packed up and left, and usually this makes me feel so upset i can't function, but i think that i am learning to say good-bye. today, all i can see is forward, thanks to my cousins being themselves and helping me find the ground. i am passing my sadness tests, which are weird little trials to see how resilient my happiness is. i feel like next year is full of things that i do not know, mysteries, but i am ready to delve into them, because last year , i was waiting for something or other, and this year, i am not, and i have no one to think about but myself. i had all sorts of lovely poetic thoughts, but i am too tired to put them down properly, so i am writing this bla bla bla so i can refer to it later with all of my nice thoughts. i will admit, i am sad in the slightest when i think about my losses, but the sadness doesn't feel crippling and i think now, i am ready to use it to my advantage. next year, i am going to hunt for some sort of band i can run around with, because i like to sing, and i want to lean towards my musical inclination that i normally ignore. perhaps i will start learning some instruments also. ok life. you have survived the hardest year. let's move forward, for real. not the pep-talk sort of moving forward, but the actual act of moving onto new things, new people, and new worlds.


my cousins got me grounded, even though these family things used to make me feel all shook up. i feel older than i used to, i feel smarter, i feel less nervous, i feel like it is all perfect.

Monday, August 3, 2009


i am feeling more at peace with myself, and i think for real this time, not just to try to convince myself i am. i am concerned about the issue of my possible egocentrism. i wondered if being so concerned about this is a part of said problem.

Sunday, August 2, 2009


drunken conversations, a bajillion giggles, and singing our hearts out for hours.

Saturday, August 1, 2009


tent city, grandma city, welch city, love.